got back from chemo
Well kiddies, it’s about that time again. I just finished chemo #7 so that leaves 5 more to go. Yay?
I’m so effin’ tired. I stayed up until about 5:30 in the morning and had to get up at around 7:30. I slept through most of my chemo. I was too tired to keep up conversations with people. I did, however, get my chemo nurse to admit that she’d do me before any of her other patients. After I prodded her for the answer, I said, “well, that was very inappropriate.” I think she got scared for maybe 3 seconds. I could see the fear in her eyes — she actually thought I was serious for a bit. But then I smiled and made another joke. She lightened up after that. It’s all fun and games until someone gets fired, right? ;-)
I went bearing gifts. You have to keep those people happy, right? Anyone who is going to access your port and touch you in all kinds of ways needs to like you. I think I’m pretty well liked there, thank God. It doesn’t hurt that I’m one of the youngest people there. They can’t really joke around as much with grandpas and grandmas.
My boss and I have been in constant contact for the last few days. I am considering taking on a project — a very light one — to keep myself from going insane. My parents do not think this is a wise idea. They’d prefer it if I continued to concentrate on my health and leave the job stuff for after my last chemo. I just want to be doing something other than sitting around and contemplating the vastness of the universe. I’m bored. And I need something else! The project would involve doing some economic impact analysis for the San Antonio Spurs. That’s convenient, as SA is just right over there *points south.* If I need to head there, I can do it with minimal problems. I’m still thinking about it. I think my boss is anxious for me to get back in there, but he’s being a sweetheart about me taking my time as well. I feel terrible for not being able to commit the same amount of time I’m used to commiting to different projects there. I feel like I’m letting people down and perhaps even letting myself down. Oh well, hopefully this Spurs thing will pan out so that I can once again be involved in work again, in whatever capacity.
Tonight, I’m laying low and will probably take a nap until The Hills is on. I know, right? What am I? A 16 year old girl?! What the hell am I doing watching The Hills? Meh.
I can already feel it. I know this week is going to be a little rougher than last time. I should get a prize if I make it through the week. HINT HINT. ;-)
