while i was out.. (PC)
The last couple of weeks had put me in quite a funk and I felt the need to distance myself from everyone and everything.
Let me give y’all a quick rundown to explain my absence:
* I was admitted to the hospital briefly last week because of a fever that wouldn’t let up and I spent the rest of the week struggling at home with an infection. I wanted to be better, dammit! But alas, my body failed me yet again. The good news is that I’m ok now. w00t?
* Being stuck at home illin’ and shit sucks because you have so much time to think. This time I concentrated on the fact that all of my friends were registering for classes and getting ready to go back to school. I seemed to have forgotten that I didn’t let EVERYONE know that I was sick. Some of the people in my grad program started e-mailing me, asking about school, dissertation topics, blah blah blah… and it just really pissed me off! It wasn’t their fault and I knew that but I had this ugly feeling come over me and I really didn’t know how to make it go away. I would never wish cancer on any of them, but I did feel like them being in the best of health when I wasn’t deserved a good vagina punch.
* I decided to take a rain check for another date I had set with a really amazing person. All other dates have been postponed indefinitely as well. He’s definitely future husband material, that’s for sure. He’s the best. But the circumstances surrounding our friendship/relationship has me feeling a bit uneasy and I’d feel better if I took care of myself first right now and then eased into dating when I feel like I can control my emotions a bit more easily and things seem a little more certain. Besides, I have a major case of the he’s-too-good-for-me-anyways.
These things had me feeling angry, frustrated, bitter, [insert negative adjective here] so I figured I would spare you all from my general negativeness. Oh and also,
* To be really honest, I couldn’t take Lynn’s gayness anymore. His obsession with furry men, mustaches and junk food creeps me out. *shudders*
;)
But anyway, enough with the bitching. Speaking of bitching, my sisters are such complainers! I swear this conversation happened a couple of days ago when we all got together at my parents’ place for dinner:
Sister1: OMGGGGG my craaaaaaaaaaaamps! what the FUCK. why are they so bad this month?!
Sister2: oh, stop complaining.
Sister1: Shut UP! You are ALWAYS complaining. Remember, the other day you said you wanted to get pregnant just so you wouldn’t get your period? Whatever. It hurts and I’m out of pads! What if I stain myself?!
Sister2: Why do you use pads?! Use tampons and you won’t have that problem!
Sister1: Um, HELLO, ever heard of toxic shock syndrome?!
Sister2: Um, HELLO, ever heard of you being a dumb ass?!
Sister1: Not only that! I also want to keep my virginity…
(after about two seconds of silence we all bust out laughing)
me: Yeah, isn’t it about time you got that “vaginal rejuvenation” thing done?
Sister1: Whatever Mikey, YOU need vaginal rejuvenation.
me: Nope, I think my vagina is all set, thank you.
Sister1: AHH the craaaaaaaamps…*whines* I HATE this!
me: Stop complaining! I HAVE FUCKING CANCER!
Sister1: You better quit your cancer shit or I’m going to spray your face with blood.
NASTY.
Keep in mind that my sisters are about 30 and have children.
Nice, right? And you wonder why I’m the way I am.
Okay, I’m tired of writing. I’ll write another blog later tonight.
