January 2009
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Cancer Shirts FTW
Things are rough around here. Took what’s-his-face to get his bone marrow biopsy and other tests done today and while I waited, I did what any good boyfriend would do: I thought up stupid shirts for him/us.
He needs to smile.
First, we have the “bALLer” shirt. Yes, he’s survived ALL (acute lymphoblastic leukemia) once, ladies and gentlemen. He can surely do it again. ...
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au revoir, 2008.
Ever wish you had one of these?
Yeah, me too.
See, this year has been so unbelievably hard that a large part of me would like to somehow find a way to erase it completely from my memory. Never in my life have I felt so vulnerable, so scared, so angry. Never in my life have I felt my own mortality the way that I have this year.
I learned what true suffering feels like. I also learned a...
December 2008
3 posts
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What to do, WHAT TO DO?!
Well, fuck.
While my best and worst of 2008 lists will come tomorrow or the next day, I have to take the time today to give a major thumbs DOWN to cancer and what it’s done to my life, my academic/professional plans, yadda yadda yadda.
I had a consultation with the rads guy today. It angered the CRAP out of me. I’m angry that this isn’t over yet! I’m in remission...
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Cancer Patient's Guide to Surviving the Holidays...
Christmas is here. WOW, right? “Good things are coming my way,” I kept telling myself. In January. When things were fine. Sort of. And my year started off with a bang! I worked on my phd, worked full-time as an economic consultant for a company in Austin, and I was TAing a class on game theory. I was also volunteering, making sure I was physically fit, and spending time with my family...
October 2008
7 posts
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My first (and hopefully only) Cancer Halloween
I was going to title this post “Cancerween” but I didn’t want you guys to think I was going to talk about my penis. Actually, by the end of this post I probably will talk about it at least once, but it’s mostly about Halloween, I swear. Does anyone want to discuss Halloween costumes with me? I’m feeling pretty bummed for many reasons today but one is that I probably...
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Mansion of Terror: A Cancer Patient's Perspective
Oh. My. Effin’. God. Where to even begin?!
So as a lot of you know, I was in the hospital with pneumonia last week and FINALLY got released a couple of days ago. Since then I’ve been pretty much taking it easy and trying to entertain myself with anything that I can do from my bed. *raises eyebrow* Haha.
But anyway, as you guys can imagine, I’ve been bored out of my mind!...
This always happens to me, too! (from xkcd)
No Thriller this year
me: Hey, I finally got out of the hospital!
Jason: Nice! Now you can come dance to Thriller with us!
haha as if I have the energy!
Besides, my zombie outfit is MIA.
: -p
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A Letter From Birmingham Jail (Okay, the hospital)
So yeah, I’ve been in the hospital for a week now. How do people even put up with this?! I’m DYING in here. And not even of cancer. OF BOREDOM! I ended up with a certain crappy viral infection that has apparently been going around. I was dealing well with it up until the day I made that stupid “cancerland” post. I got a fever and wasn’t feeling very well so I call the...
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On being immature. And Cancerland.
I’m a bit sick tonight, so my mom took it upon herself to drive over here and demand that she stay with me. You know, to make sure that I’ll be okay. I’m 28 years old, dammit! I can take care of myself! :-) You know, I get frustrated that my parents treat me like I’m a child sometimes, but honestly, I’ve noticed that I’ve become so much more immature since I got...
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Jared brings the LOLs
So my brother sends me the following e-mail today:
Mike,
Gayest Picture Ever BEFORE.
Gayest Picture Ever AFTER.
Let me sum it all up for you: GAY.
-Jared
The attachments?
and
HAHA! Nasty.
September 2008
14 posts
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chemo #8
I had chemo #8 yesterday. That one was kind of rough. I started to feel this burning sensation so I called the nurse over and after that got fixed, I started to feel nauseated and really tired. I was up and around doing a lot of stuff last weekend so I’m guessing that all of that just caught up to me.
I’m still frustrated that no nausea meds have been able to help me. How many...
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cancer card works on the Austin po-po!
I busted out the cancer card yesterday and BOO-YAH! I got myself (and a friend) out of a sticky situation!
I’ve been kind of sick so I’ve been laying low for the past few days but by this afternoon, I realized that I was pretty tired of being stuck inside. I needed some fresh air. So I met Julie at the Co-op. She needed to get some books and I tagged along just for kicks. ...
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grant proposal writer extraordinaire
Jared is taking this elective class on how non-profits work, or um, something like that. Anyway, his assignment for the weekend was to write a grant proposal for diabetes research stuff. It was simple: All he had to do was write a proposal on behalf of a fake organization. It’d take a few hours max. Buuuut my little brother could care less about school right now because he’s...
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I should be Vice President
My GOD is Sarah Palin entertaining. I actually can’t get enough of her. This bitch has absolutely NO idea what she’s doing! I, for one, am frightened to see all of these people come out of the woodwork to support the McCain-Palin ticket now. Hillary supporters? SERIOUSLY?! Why the FUCK would these self-proclaimed feminists switch over?! They would go against everything they...
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au revoir, PC!
So when I got diagnosed with cancer, I couldn’t figure out how to tell anybody. My parents were going to freak. My brothers and sisters, too. My friends would pity me. I knew I had to tell SOMEONE but I didn’t know who I could talk to that would truly understand what I was going through and help me out. Then I thought, “Oh yeah, didn’t I date some cancer survivor for a...
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ignorant people
While I was at Texas Oncology today, I noticed this old white man with his wife (who had cancer) and I couldn’t help but watch them interact. They looked sooo cute from afar. He seemed restless. He kept getting up and asking her if she needed anything. At one point, he grabbed some magazines for her and asked her to choose one and he laughed when she chose ‘People’ over...
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got back from chemo
Well kiddies, it’s about that time again. I just finished chemo #7 so that leaves 5 more to go. Yay?
I’m so effin’ tired. I stayed up until about 5:30 in the morning and had to get up at around 7:30. I slept through most of my chemo. I was too tired to keep up conversations with people. I did, however, get my chemo nurse to admit that she’d do me before any of her...
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Ikealicious
SO I went to Ikea this weekend and saw someone that I did NOT want to see. After all kinds of awkwardness, I headed towards the cafeteria craving some of those all-too-delicious swedish meatballs. Yeah, they tasted like crap. Fucking chemo makes everything taste disgusting. Before leaving, I had a big box land on my toe and I had to deal with a screaming 1 year old. All in all, a productive...
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king of bad ideas
I somehow convinced myself that chili cheese tater tots would be an okay idea tonight.
MY STOMACH HURTS! mother fucker. why do I have to be so stupid?
After tonight’s conversation, I have this...
August 2008
8 posts
“Yes, Bristol and Trig. Sarah also has three other kids named Track, Willow and...”
– Michael K on GOP VP choice Sarah Palin’s kids
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i'm getting "superfudge" next!
I think cancer is making me stupid.
I started off this journey with some wonderful books on deck. History, Politics, Linguistics, Economics, Science — these things were all going to be covered. I got through a few of them and then…
I made a mistake.
After Pinker’s “The Stuff of Thought,” I made the mistake of picking up the Twilight series. A week later, I was...
“I had a lover’s quarrel with the world today.”
– Robert Frost
Shaken, not stirred
I find that when my body is aching, my mind drifts away to a land where all I can see are the things that I fear. I used to be so fearless. What’s the matter with me, seriously? I’m just not having any of it today. My best friend came by to pick some things up from here and he brought his little daughter with him. She’s almost 2 and so completely adorable — it melts my...
while i was out.. (PC)
The last couple of weeks had put me in quite a funk and I felt the need to distance myself from everyone and everything. Let me give y’all a quick rundown to explain my absence: * I was admitted to the hospital briefly last week because of a fever that wouldn’t let up and I spent the rest of the week struggling at home with an infection. I wanted to be better, dammit! But alas, my...
Uncle Mike can't play today (PC)
Another blog from Michael. :-/ Sorry guys. And actually, it has nothing to do with insomnia or cats, much to the relief of a lot of you, I assume. I’ve decided that I’m not going to answer any phone calls that aren’t from my family, my best friends, or my doctors from here on out. I made the mistake of answering my phone a while ago and now I just have a headache and feel...
July 2008
4 posts
The highlight of my weekend (PC)
I threw up on some bitch a few hours ago. How awesome is that? Okay, before I get into that, let me give an update. As many of you know by reading JT”s last blog, a hurricane hit south Texas a few days ago. Well, it hit harder than expected and my best friend, Matt (who happens to be JT’s brother), couldn’t get a hold of his family so he got anxious and crazy and wanted to ...
Meat is murder. Tasty, tasty murder...
While I appreciate the reasons why people go vegan or are vegetarians and I think it’s great when people choose that lifestyle, I simply cannot go without big, fat, juicy slabs of meat. The fact that I’m gay makes this statement slightly more amusing, I think. Ha, I just made myself smile. Anyway, carrying on…
I’m a carnivore, plain and simple. So it’s frustrating...
Cancer makes me feel warm inside
Okay, not so much the happy, comforting kind of warm. I just have a fever. :-) Why is it that the moment you are at your weakest — the moment you’ve realized that the full head of hair you’ve always enjoyed but quite frankly took for granted is gone — the TV decides to bombard you with a million and one shampoo and hair care product commercials? Eff that bullshit. All...
It's my party and I'll [bitch] if I want to
Yet another PC entry.
I’m really frustrated.
I got my second shot of Neulasta early this morning and I’m already feeling like it’s slapping me around like I’m its little bitch.
So yeah, what’s worse is that it’s my birthday. Aww, please don’t go and send me birthday wishes now. I don’t want to even remember it’s my birthday. I never want to...
June 2008
2 posts
Bored/Halloween/Sex/Whatever (PC entry)
I’m bored, you guyyyyyyyyyyyys. Haha. OK, so I’ve never been more bored in my life. I had no idea that cancer was going to give me THIS much time on my hands. Before cancer, I was totally the guy who worked/went to school/kept busy until about 3 am and then slept three hours, and woke up at 6 am to do it all over again. But now that I’ve dropped everything for cancer, I find...
and it begins...
Well you all warned me but a part of me *still* thought, nahhhhhh. It can’t be all that bad. I’m keeping score, y’all. Neulasta: 1, Mikey: 0. I got up from bed because I suddenly felt sick and well, there went my dinner. Nice, huh? I don’t know why I thought I could be strong. Stronger than most. Heck, stronger than everybody else has ever been. But I’m just two...